rambling thoughts

                                    My mind is a mess, i am extra low on sleep. My mind is full of rambling thoughts, purely chaotic. The wild chaos is what i am used to. I know i will never be able to sort out all of the madness. That is okay with me though. I am sitting in my bed, laptop resting on my stomach. Bored out of my wits. 

I am watching a romantic movie, wishing that i still believed in love. I wish i could believe that the romance, the love i see in movies existed in real life. I want that fairy tale romance in my life. I don't want to be all alone forever, i don't want to settle  for less than Prince Charming.  I know that sounds impossible and maybe it is. I don't know. I want to know if there really is such a thing as fairy tale love. If there is than i want it.